Thursday, June 28, 2012

Less then 12 hours.

Less from 12 hours from now my best friend of 16 years and I will be en route to hawaii. I am so excited that I can't sleep, maybe I wool sleep on the plane. I have so much going through my pretty little head. What you ask? Well be prepared for a tangent, but bear with me I wil do my best not to stray to far from topic lol. 

1. Do I have every thing I need? We are packing light. There are 3 of us girls and the car we are renting is small so Sarah I figured it best we only bring a carry on, our purses and a back pack, that saves us some money too. Although we will most likely need to bring an extra bag with is on our return flight because ok sure we wil have presents and treasures to bring back.

I was having a really hard time being ok with the idea that I have to try and fit all my belongings for 8 days in that small amount of container space. When searching through my kitchen drawers in an attempt to find large ziplock bags I came across a huge roll of saran wrap and my prayers were answers, I commenced to my large pile of belongings that at this point was scattered all over my bedroom, and after folding and stacking everything into neat little piles I saran wrapped the hell our out them and "Wa-la" I got all the clothes in there that I could possibly need and shoes and beauty products.

Now I need my laptop, art supplies, and reading material to fit somewheres. Yes I said it....art supplies...what?

I am bringing about 6ish colors of acrylic, a canvas that is almost finished, my drawing kit, some sharpies, a journal, 3 books, 4 paint brushes, and I was even considering bringing a neatly condensed package of random feathers, jewelry findings and my 3 pairs of assorted pliers and a pair of scissors. Hey a girls goods do what a girls got to do. I love getting crafty and if I'm pretending (which for a minute there I was fighting the idea) that I'm not gonna bask in the peace and serenity of hawaii and in turn be overfilling with inspiration I would be fooling me, you and the whole world too. Lol.

Besides I have an art submission deadline that I need to meet so I have got to get that painting done and shipped to "lily oncology on canvas" post marked on or before the 29th of june. Also because we dont get the painting returned to us after the contest I am gonna need to find a kinkos or something similar so that I can get a print made before I send it off into the world.

2. I am going to be flying in a freaking plane tomorrow. When I think of it from the perspective of me sitting in a plane hanging out with sarah, chit chatting..blah blah blah-ultimatly focused on my immediate surroundings, I do allright.

However when I start thinking about it from the perspective of outside looking in, for instance if I imaging myself flying in an freaking huge airplane barreling through the sky at high altitudes and high speed, for six hours I start to kind of freak out. Its been close to tenet years since the last time I flew in a plane...... I wil be ok....right?

3. Oh my lordy lord mc lordster, I am going to miss my kids and family something fierce.

Thats what is on my mind.....and now to take my sheets out the dryer and nuzzle up, get cozy and catch some shut eye, I want to be able to spend a good hour and a half our so with my munchkins before they are off to daycare and I an off to the airport. 8 days is a long time to be away from my little ones, I wil make the best of it and I'm sure they will too, but boy oh boy Ima miss those punkinheads.

I got a little more to do before I can turn in so aloha, for now. :)

Aloha

Here I sit in hawaii, with a full and open heart. Giving in to the turn of life, happy to be a part. Letting the universe paint the picture, grateful just to be its art.

Like a wheel, turning to get you "there", my purpose is my only care. I wouldnt think of being what i'm not, no circle can ever be a square. With gravity-destiny-faithfully pushing me forward and pulling me down, my feet are firmly planted on the ground.

I've realized something I didn't see before: love is always the brightest jewel on lifes majestic crown. Stay mindful of your effect on the whole of existence, anything less gets met with resistance. The path less traveled must be travailed with persistence. There is no rest stop along that route, patience is what Ahonui is about.

Humility grants you the kindness of modesty, allowing to thine own self be true. To be a part of the solution, you must always start with YOU. Ha'aha'ha.

And with the hand that has been gifted you, you can pleasantly agree- that with the grace of divinity with open eyes you'll see.  Olu'olu.

Unity expressed with harmony will inevitably set us free. What you do to yourself you also do to me. Lokahi.

So through the ups and downs, the lefts and rights- give what you take, fix what you break, never lose faith. Be kind. And with loves tenderness the calloused skin from lifes storms and winds will be softened by the balm of salvation.

The questions become the answers- everything becomes what it wasn't. The beginning was the start of the end, and the first will be the last. The all will be the one. The future will become the past. And the creator once again becomes the created.

And when its all said and done, and the world stands still, all you will hear is the beating of our hearts, and in the freedom of abandon and the spirit of connection we will find solace in knowing that we did our part.

You.....her, him and me.....Akahai.

Monday, June 25, 2012

Airplane anxiety.

You wouldn't believe the debacle that went down at the airport. Long story short...we missed our flight. We have just boarded amother flight, 7 hours later. I wil update the interwebs with how our journey went astray.

For now the rest of these skin-sacks are filling their seats and this lady may be fighting back a little airplane anxiety. Lets hope that that zanax the doc prescribed me for flying hits my system soon.

Arevaderchi or something like that. Wish me luck.....all good thoughts..... soon I wil be hurling through the airspace at the upwards of 600 miles an hour, oh my goodness its hard for me to wrap my head around that.

Its a little unreal.